my sunshine are not glittering enough...

5.30am i was awake coz i heard my brother and my mum discuss something..they said ''ayah admitted at the pantai medical centre (PMC)''.shocked.numb.like the clock doesn't exist.immediately after receiving the info,i cant get into sleep.hard for me to do so.try to get sleep coz 10am i need to drive back to my campus(pahang).cant believe this thing happen to me.redha.tawakal to Allah.i was crying to my mum and my sis.i told them,i'm scared to leave ayah alone at the hospital,and i wont go back to my campus.mum doesn't agree with my decision.she refused.hard for her to make a decision.lemah.takder semangat.thats what mum told me.lagi la mira nangis.sedih sgt.coz tak pernah tgk mama down mcm tue.sharp 8am,i drove to the hospital to visit my dad.my sis and mama went to the hospital first.i reached there late 15 minutes.meet ayah.i feel sad.i spend time with them for 1 hour and 15 minutes.then,i need to hurry back to campus.outside the room,again me cried.argh!nie tak boleh jd.mira kena kuat.be a strong gurl.i meet my frens,then we went back together.on da way back,me prays that ayah will be ok.hope.always keep reminding my self.inyaallah ayah tak der ape-ape.amin.

from me...for you..

the sweet memories still stuck inside of my mind..i'm trying my best to forgive and forget all the happinest and sadness between us..for my ex,i dedicate this lyric to you.ya.we are still frend.nothing can be change.hope you will happy with your new life.perhaps.. :)

If I should stay

I would only be in your way

So I'll go

But I knowI'll think of you every step of the way

Bittersweet memories

That is all I'm taking with me

So good-bye

Please don't talk bad things behind my back

We both know I'm not what you, you need

I hope life treats you kind

And I hope you have all you dreamed of

And I wish you joy and happiness

But above all this I wish you happy

The dayz,memories of the sadness and happiness - come and go with out we asking for it..thanx for everything.i'll appreciate it..

new life,new dress,new perspective...everythin is new!! huhu~

Quite long time i didn't renew or create new post for my blog..hehe..nway,ya.ya.everything must be new..totally change!yup!pasti!sure sangat-sangat! new era for my life..hahaha..(sure org kata : gile ker budak nie?) hye,me still waras k.. :P just to change my point of view towards other people..i'm doing my 1st degree right now.so,i've learned a lot.about people,things,studies and psycology..huhu..kind of scared huh?hahahaha..nothing to be scared! in our life,we can't deny about problems.everyone in this world face the same thing name : 'problem'. ya.eventhough you are a good or best person in the world,it doesn't mean that you are totally good.coz others point of view are differ towards you.they may againts you or beside you.just bear in mind that do the best in your life for your carier,study and family.to get new,change your mentality (always positive thingking),ideology,perspective towards poeple around you.be aware but in the same time lead your way to the successfull life.i'm trying my best to be the best of me.to be totally new of me.i repeat..i'm trying.it doesn't metter others arguing with me or about me..but i piss off IF they said bad things behind my back.the person shouldn't be respected at all.ya.like i said, just lead your life.respect the people 1st.then,they will respect you.it is two way linking between people..communication..