sedih dgn diri sendiri..

hari ni..cm tak best. tapi tak elok lar cakap cam tu..coz today is thursday. hari yang elok utk jalankan puasa sunat. bukan itu yg aku nk pertikaikan. yg aku ingin katakan..adoi! sedih dgn diri sendiri. pagi tadi, ader class Comparative Religion. aku amik subject ni this sem. sj add dis subject. masuk-masuk jer clas, lecturer aku bagi assignment. dan group aku adlh group yg pertama kena buat presentation. aku hanya gelengkan kepala. tajuk presentation kami ialah Awal Muharram. segalanyer akan berjalan lancar selapas ni, sbb kami dpt resources dr luar. so,beban kerja dah kurang skiet..alhamdulillah.
kemudian.. at noon, aku ader class tutorial account. semalaman aku stay up utk siapkan hw account. tapi aku tak berjaya. sbb ader question yg aku tak faham nk buat. so, i just left it out. cadangnya nk bgn awal pg, nk continue buat hw. tp malangnya, aku ngantuk sgt. ader 4 soalan kena buat. i manage to do 3 question out of 4 ques. bagi aku, at least i try my best to do. dgn cuak, aku pergi class. mmg hati rasa tak selesa, coz aku tak complete kerja aku. aku gamble jer dtg class. lecturer aku (kitorg panggil miss) tanye saper yg siap semua. none of us complete the questions. miss dah start mengamuk.

miss tanya kat aku, "amira did you answer all the question?"
i replied, "i didn't do 1 question.i dont understand what the question is all about.."

dgn amarahnya, miss aku mengamuk lagi...
" if u dont undertand, why not u come and see me. are you busy with your activities?"

aku hanya geleng kepala dan tunduk. tak mahu menatap wajah miss yg sedang marah. aku hanya diam dan dengar leterannyer..

"this subject is a process of learning. its not a process of giving. you are not learning if i give u the answer. where's your efford to learn? if you dont undertand, do come and see me. just knock my door. i'm there,willingly to help you guys. i'm not the one who gonna sit for the exam. its you! i'm sad because you are not willingly to help your self.then, whose gonna help you? after this, this subject gonna be tougher. pls do something for yourself.."

selepas beberapa minit kemudian, miss dah ok. serious. aku takut.
takut utk sakitkan hati miss utk kali kedua dan seterusnyer...
so, kalau tak nak takut. kenalar buat semua hw.. huhuhu..

pastu kitorg bincang hw yg diberi.. miss tanyer kpd aku, " mira faham tak? mana yg u tak faham td?"
lega hati aku.miss ader tanyer. aku pun bgtaula aper yg tak faham. alhamdullillah, aku dpt betulkan aper yang aku salah tafsirkan sebelum nie. banyak jugak aku belajar benda baru. x-specially account, aku sedaya upaya utk buat yg terbaik utk subject nie. bukan subject ni jer..tapi semua lar..